Ever experience being held at gunpoint? I do – figuratively though. It is a despicable feeling to feel that you cannot do anything about a situation. And it’s all for her, who had brought me to this world – for her wishes, and for her heart’s desire.
And the antagonist is somebody from the family who had held everybody hostage and that she loves more than she does for the rest. I just couldn’t believe how that one can be so selfish, and uncaring. And this, I believe, warrants the hatred I feel.
Odium - a dead feeling that I am afraid I can get used to, and that will eat me in time.
In my nightmares... I do get the same experience.
ReplyDeletehi, mon. you can get out of the nightmare, anytime. i am at present being held hostage everyday, every minute, every second.
ReplyDeleteQuite a helpless and frustrating feeling at the same time. Hope everything goes well though...
ReplyDeletecharity, my child. Charity.
ReplyDeleteWe're not saints and certainly you have the right to feel angry. But anger is different from hatred. Hatred can consume you and in the end, you lose. ... Mahirap man gawin in situations like these, look the other way and count your blessings. :)
ReplyDeleteCool ka lang. bing. Hope you'll have a great weekend.
ReplyDeletehope everything will fall into place... :)
ReplyDeletehave a passable weekend po...
It's one thing I always avoid to occur in the house but siguro every household experiences that kaya I do have some problems like that. I just get away sometimes to avoid more heat.
ReplyDeleteSometime's it's even hard if the source of ill feelings come from a family member. I feel for you. Take care. :)
ReplyDeleteit is true, ferdz. it is a helpless and frustrating feeling. it is a lingering predicament and i am being held hostage.
ReplyDeletei believe that i have shown enough kindness, tk, kindness that was reciprocated with bad deeds. but maybe that is according to my perception as a human being. i need God's guidance perhaps. i don't want to be hating people, especially those within the family circle.
it's sad but it's true, bugsy. it is at this point that it is consuming me. but as a friend told me, there has to be acceptance - that i cannot do anything about it, that the person perhaps is the only one who can help himself, and that i have to offer it to the Lord, and let Him do something about it.
the good news about life is, when we count our blessings, it is still abounding, bugs. and thank you for reminding me about it. :-)
hope it will be a fine weekend, single. thank you.
major tom, simple altercations in the household cannot be avoided. my situation is way far different. the squabble had ended long before. it is the acts that is really hateful, and i avoid confrontations because it will not help anymore. they had become useless. but it is gaining on me. i feel hatred. i pray that God will heal this ailing heart.
thank you, ipanema. it is appreciated. :-)