I am scared of myself at times. Repeatedly piqued, I would wish that I could make a person vanish just how vain magicians do in the movies. I would justify this thought with another thought that it may be better that way – that they do not exist because they cause malady.
When a person’s ill deeds really get into my nerves, I could almost utter “I wish you’re dead!” or “I wish you go to hell!” I know it is bad but that is how I go cold-hearted when people infuriate me.
When it is not possible to get rid at once of disgusting people, it is so easy to be led astray with these thoughts. Then I would be guilty if I was transformed into something like them – monsters that sap our wits.
You may want to check the cause of my rage here.
tita bing, you are right -- it is easy to be led astray. i've felt this way many times (which you may have noticed through my blog); maybe it's part of being a naive youngster. you are admirable for recognizing this basic human weakness, and trying to resist the urge to splurge in this dark sde -- in fact, many humans don't even see this as something bad. :(
ReplyDeletetita, thank you for the gentle reminders on my "fatso" post. :D youngsters do need the advice of those who've already trod the path.
hi, corsi. no problemo. we all have the urge to give in to what is so easy to do - be really BAD. but we are accountable and all we do has consequences.
ReplyDeleteDon't wish them dead, Bing. That's too convenient for them. Wish instead that their teeth would all fall off and one would remain for an extremely painful toothache - for a lifetime. Seeing them suffer they'd wish they're dead would be the most joyful thing on earth. Tama ba?
ReplyDeleteI usually would just bless them and release them to their highest good; I know, "easier said than done," but with practice it becomes second nature.
ReplyDeleteThis is actually a good thing to embody, especially if you drive in Metro Manila -- with so many infantile drivers around, it's so tempting to succumb to road rage at times, believe me.
Hi Bing. I think to rage is but part of the human dynamics...that makes us human. Siguro if one becomes to considerate despite the extreme undesirability of situations, then that's when we fail to become truthful to ourselves.
ReplyDeleteFor me, I just operate the norm, 'don't get mad, just get even'...
he he Nico, you are more than cold-hearted! sometimes i feel guilty though that they suffer, thinking that my curse could've worked. but then again, it is bad..
ReplyDeletehi, eric! what a nice man.. 'tis true, 'easier said than done'..
ah, yes, major tom, we lie to ourselves when we do not feel the emotion of anger when something really angers us, or maybe one has become a zombie, unfeeling and uncaring. they say, that to feel anger and all the other emotions is also being sensible.
bing, i think that's natural. ako din ganun kung minsan. i try to counter it by being in their shoes and think the way they think. iisipin ko na lang kung bakit nila nagawa yon and i try to find some fault in myself that might have triggered their actions. this way i understand them even a little bit better and i stop being bitter at them.
ReplyDeleteYou're just being human Bing.We are not all born with the patience of Job. Cheer up and have a nice weekend.:D
ReplyDeletehi, KU... if i were in their shoes, i would be reasonable enough not to do anything beyond reason. not that i am righteous, but in every deed there should be sense.
ReplyDeletesnglguy, dunno what character of Job I have. maybe a little patience. but i cant bear evil people..