Friday, March 30, 2007

A Week After

Lingering?


I am not a believer of stories that the dead lets their presence felt for days after the time their spirit leaves their physical bodies. But the first night of the wake, it was in our house (where I presently live), my sister heard of something like “Psst!” near the door of my room. She ran to me and told me that she heard something but there was nobody around. I shrugged and replied it was only her imagination. But I heard the same “Psst!” the second night, very clear and felt very near. Along with it were the goose bumps that ran from my neck to the top of my head. I panicked inside but did not tell the story at once. I heard it again on the last night of the wake near her coffin and simply ignored it though I was scared. When she was about to be brought to her final resting place, I heard the “Psst!” again, and then after she was buried, when we returned to the house. It was such a weird feeling. I cannot pretend that I was not afraid. The thought that it could be something from the demon is really scary. But a Christian friend told me that I should not be afraid and rebuke the presence. Others believe otherwise and kept on telling me it was my mother who must have missed the things she wanted to say when she was still living. They told me to talk to her like assuring things that everything is fine and that she rest in peace. But what if the ‘ghost’ replied, I answered laughing. Could it be her lingering?


Frustrated again?


Have you ever encountered people who repeatedly tell lies? It is as if they were born to lie. So frustrating. He could have shown that once in a while he could be trusted. I remember an elderly who once told me about the saying 'if you cannot be trusted for a single centavo, what more for a peso'?


As if this negativity is the thing that is lingering around, a superior had not still met with those concerned regarding an issue at work. I am pissed of the thought that the matter was left hanging when resolving an issue like that will not even require a day.


A Blessing


A friend who is also a cousin (and who had recently been promoted to assistant undersecretary of a government agency) sent me a text message one day. He told me that he was so sorry he was not able to visit the funeral because of his schedule. He gave me assistance, through my bank account, (for the burial expenses), quite a considerable amount which overwhelmed me and made me cry. How could he have felt that I went kaput after the whole thing? It brought back the memory again of my mother, and the sufferings. But he is a blessing, a comfort in my hour of need.


To you my friend: You told me that you can’t repay God’s gift of good friends but you can thank Him with gladness in your heart. The feeling is mutual and my prayers are the same. God bless you with happiness and zealousness the rest of your life.


Finder’s Keepers?


After the recognition day yesterday, Papsie and the kids went to KFC for their lunch. Daryl approached Ate Kay holding a P 1,000 peso bill and asked if it is real. Papsie reached for the bill and inspected it and told them, “Ayos, bawi na ang gastos natin.” (Ok, our expenses are paid off!) Kay refused with a mumble, “Pa…” The father was, of course, affected by his ‘conscience’ and told her that he cannot just ask people around because there can be those who will claim the money even if it is not theirs. So, he observed and when he saw a woman frantically searching her bag, he immediately approached her and asked her if something is missing. The lady thanked him telling that it is money for the blow-out of her child who had graduated.

24 comments:

  1. PSsssst!... Mga tunay na kaibigan'g mapagmahal at siyang nagpapakita ng tunay na malasakit s iyo....kakaiba yan!

    PSsssst!...Magandan'g karma yung pag-sauli niyo ng pera sa tunay na may-ari.

    PSsssst! Ay sumisingaw na pala itong inflatable bed na higaan ko!

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  2. ha ha iba namang psst yan e.. tuloy tuwing me sumisitsit, napapalingon ako :-D

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  3. Galing ni Kay, Daryl and Papsie! Their goodness will be returned tenfold.

    Hahaha to Noypetes! Inflatable bed. :) I don't know what to believe about lingering spirits. But whether good or bad... you shouldn't be afraid but must replace your fear with faith.

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  4. I am glad that my kids are growing to be responsible and sensible human beings, toe.

    kakaiba talaga ang mga punchline ni noypetes, ano?

    it has been replaced with courageousness. prayers do help a lot. the Lord always provides. :-)

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  5. Bing,
    Nuong bata pa kami pag natatakot kami sa mga kuwentong multo ng mga binata lalo na pagkatapos ng radio show nuon na "Gabi ng Lagim", pag-sasabihan kami ng mga matatanda na "mabuti pang matakot kayo sa buhay kaysa sa patay!" katapos lolokohin kaming mga wala daw kaming mga "yagbols"!

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  6. sa tingin ko totoo yung paramdam kasi the night na nawala din ang lola ko, narinig din ng sis ko yung boses nya habang lahat kami nasa bahay nya naghihintay ng balita from the hospital, pero di rin naman nagtatagal yun.

    isang bagsak para sa mag-aama mo :) pero nauna na naman ang blessing diba? yung help na binigay ng friend mo :)

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  7. there is actually a bible verse that says the same thing, noypetes.

    'nga e, melai. i really believe that good things are always reciprocated with equally good things.

    i still doubt the 'paramdam'. not comfortable really with the idea that it could really be my mother. not that i dont want to talk to her but the basic idea of a dead person talking to a living person is really weird. :-)

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  8. I experienced the 'paramdam'. It's true. Sometimes it's really almost in my ears. :)

    Ah, a generous heart who understands.

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  9. Our minds , esp our consciousness can make things happen ! As they say, it's all in the mind . If you 're not thinking about it at all, it will never be :)

    There are people who are pathological liars and we can't do much about their attitudes esp if they're not our relatives. I would be wary of trusting these people :(

    God bless your cousin who has a big heart :)

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  10. Kudos to your hubby for returning the one thousand pesos, most people would just pocket it. Finder's keepers nga...

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  11. You raised your children well, bing. Sila pang nag-paalala kay Pa nila to be honest . ;)

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  12. really, ipanema? sometimes, i do want to believe. it stopped already. but it was really puzzling kung ano yung narinig ko.

    maybe true to the following instances, bw. but what about the first time. i havent even thought of it. i just heard it. it was like it popped from nowhere.

    he has a big heart, bw.

    single, me 'conscience' kasing katabi ha ha

    i was amazed,irene , especially at kay who is beginning to be really responsible and sensitive.

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  13. I sometimes hear my name being called when I'm alone. Loud and clear. Scary? Definitely! But in your case, if it's your mom then maybe she's simply saying hello to you guys :)

    Regarding the money found....you got a honest lot there Bing. The kids were taught well :)

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  14. It is believed that goodwill helps the lingering spirit to move on...So your family's good deeds certainly helps.

    Be not afraid, for He comes before you always.

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  15. i also had a first hand experience with a lingering spirit, like you. but mine was visual. i was still small then, when my 16 year-old cousin passed away. after the funeral, we went straight to their house. the door to her room was open, and as i came out from the other room (i was actually playing and running around), i saw 'someone' sitting on the floor, wearing a purple dress, with her back towards me. when i told her mom about it, nonchalantly as with kids, my tita told me it must have been her, and that purple was her favorite color. that whole picture is still very vivid in my mind.

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  16. Bing, I hope I can raise my boy as honest as you have raised your child.

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  17. talaga, verns? didnt you feel scared? how did you react?

    the values taught must have instilled very well. :-)

    the Lord never fails, leah. He is just a prayer away.

    oh, wow. a really scary one. how did you feel after they told you that, vina?

    you will, rey. you are one supportive parent. :-)

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  18. hmmm...i don't remember. i was just casual about the whole thing. i was only 8 years old, i think. a few days after the funeral, i also had high fever for 3 days. on the 3rd day, we smelled flowers, and so mama 'talked' to my cousin to not 'play' with me (i was her favorite cousin and she often invited me to her house for sleepovers), and then, all of a sudden, my fever disappeared, and i was up and running in no time.

    i have actually forgotten about her, ms. bing, and it isn't fair for her. she had been wonderful to me and she was a good person. i shouldn't forget her. thank you for this 'reminder'.

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  19. Ganyan din reaction mga kids ko nung makapulot ako ng gold bracelet sa parking lot ng mall. Pagbaba ko sa car natisod ng sapatos ko. Kanino ko naman kako yun isosoli eh wala namang address. I just explained to her na kapag may naghanap isosoli ko or kung may napulot sila na may address or tel num that's the time na dapat isoli.

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  20. i am glad it sort of reminded you of your cousin, vina. don't feel guilty about forgetting because you did not forget her. the dead and the living, ika nga, have their own separate worlds. you are moving on because you are in this part of the world. we cant dwell forever with thoughts about them.

    children if thought well can even be better than the adults, ann, di ba?

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  21. Finders keepers. According to a Chinese belief, you should not keep any money you find that's not yours. The longer you keep, the more bad luck it brings. You should spend it and not on yourself. It should be spent on some cause beneficial to others.

    It's both a customary practise and a superstition. I am not superstitious but I like the spirit of the practise.

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  22. 'the longer you keep, the more bad luck it brings' hmm seems like a sound warning to those people who steal. thanks, bayi for sharing. :-)

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  23. Wow. Very honest people you are! You are blessed :)

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