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I have a friend who told me once that she thinks about morbid thoughts almost all the time when she rides a bus or a jeepney. When she is in a bus, for example, the thought of the bus slamming into another vehicle suddenly emerges. Grisly vision of her and her daughter will play - their limbs contorted or severed.
Morbid thoughts persist especially in times when accidents and crimes are rampant. I bet not a single soul is exempt. Of course, being a paranoid is another story. But the entire populace of the world surely had experienced bouts of uneasiness because of these morbid thoughts.
One time, I woke up in the middle of the night crying because of a bad dream. The instantaneous feeling of anxiety, fear, uncertainty and gloom overwhelmed me. After a few minutes of getting back into the real world, I got up to drink water. I was at the kitchen when suddenly I heard something from outside the living room door.
I thought of the possibility of someone trying to break in the house. The fear almost paralyzed me but common sense dictated that there was still no reason to be alarmed. I braced myself and courageously open the jalousies of the last window panel farthest from the door. No one was there but a cat that meowed upon seeing me.
That was silly of me, I know. It was probably the bad dream. But it did not stop me from thinking further what if there really was someone lurking outside the house. What if the incidence when a thief had successfully forced the lock of our mini sari-sari store before (that son of a gun took away some money and eved glugged a bottle of softdrinks @#*) happened again and that time into the house? What would I do? Honestly, I don't know. It so easy to say what to do best but when overcome with fear, the mind, at times, does not perform very well especially during panic.
The mind is a battle field indeed. Either you give in to these morbid thoughts or stand your ground to stay cool and relax. Or either you end up spent or renewed. God help me.
You're right; the mind's a battle field. We may think that in certain circumstances we'll act rationally but all the time, when panic takes hostage, the actions would be different.
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or you write it down in a manuscript and make tons of money out of royalties ala stephen king.
ReplyDeleteThat only shows that you are now on the other half of the bell curve. Meaning, the line is going down or back to the level where it started, at point zero.
ReplyDeleteIn short, you are growing younger again.
This is my technical analysis and view of the so-called life on earth.
Magulo ba?
hi bing! i do experience morbid thoughts especially after an altercation of some sort. anyway, those were the days. i don;t even seem to dream nowadays.
ReplyDeletehey, there's something in my blog for you. :)
Pag naka-upo lang ako sa banyo at saka ako nag-kakaruon ng "morbid thoughts". Lalo na pag medyo mahirap iluwal ang basura ng aking tiyan!
ReplyDeletePero kadalasan "carnal thoughts" ang nasa isipan ko at ito ang pampa-relaks ko lalo na pag gusto kong matulog kaagad.
Yang mga "morbid thoughts" ay patunay iyan ng malusog na kaisipan, pero nagdudulot iyan ng "stress" sa buhay ng tao. "Pleasure thoughts" na lang para masaya ang buhay mo dito sa lupa.
it's best to put these thoughts to good use. let them give you the energy to be always on guard but never ever let paranoia overcome you.
ReplyDeletei do get this sometimes. even when it's so hot, i will close the window because I have this thought that some maniac will climb and rape me. or i will close my son's window thinking that a pedophile will kidnap my son. even in the playground, i will never leave my son unsupervised because I fear that someone will take him.
ReplyDeleteWe all have morbid thoughts. Sometimes though it borders into paranoia. We just have to ensure that we are safest in everything we do or venture.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure everything will be all right with your store Bingskee. Just take all the necessary precautions, pray, and leave everything to God.
ReplyDeleteit's all in the mind.
ReplyDeletei, once, was like that, entertaining so many things in my mind.
now, i speak my mind...as if i have one :P
i have morbid thoughts too, more so during my last year dilemma. but now that i'm having peace of mind and stronger faith - that helped me ease my out-of-this-world thinking, i am more confident of the things/events to come and leave everything to God.
ReplyDeletethat's so true of me, kyels. Papsie always tells me na ang dali ko mag-panic.
ReplyDeletegood idea, tk!
i suspect that you might be statistically right, rolly. ahihihi :-D
you don't dream anymore, ipanema? will visit soon.
mas okey nga yata ang carnal thoughts, 'no, noypetes? ha ha provided that you consume the desire with your partner lang, ha? :-D
that's a very wise suggestion, slim. there is a thin line, i think. :-)
when my kids are younger, i tend to have these morbid thoughts more often than the normal. you know how it is with mothers, sobra tayong protective, evi. :-)
somehow this morbid thoughts can be useful, too, rey as slim whale suggested. we can be more careful or cautious.
wala na ang store, toe. ginawa ng paupahan.
ha ha ha as if you have one.. that's funny, ha. guys are not really that paranoid, are they, tutubi?
ah, yes, malaya. faith in God helps us survive whatever this world gives out.
The scariest dream I've had lately is being on a boat with somebody, and we were navigating this river and there was this big alligator alongside the boat. O, di ba , it's terrifying? I woke up soooo tired dahil in my dream, we were paddling furiously to get away from the gator.
ReplyDeleteI hate it when I think of morbid thoughts, and when I do, I try to conjure more pleasant thoughts, or pray...
naku, terrifying nga, gina! no wonder you felt tired upon waking up.
ReplyDeleteprayer is the best thing to do, i agree.
We can't help worrying about things but worrying too much can lead to depression. They say it's OK to worry with the goal of arriving at a solution but is not OK to worry when you can't do much about it.
ReplyDeleteThe test would be - what's the solution to your worries ? If you can't come up with any - then you most likely don't have a problem and needlessly stressing yourself with something you can't do much about ! :) They say perception look like truth to some people when it's not even reality :)
when I was still driving, I used to have morbid thoughts of me being in an accident....
ReplyDeletenowadays I don't worry too much about it na.
Morbid thoughts? Inuman mo lang yan mawawala yan, hehe. :-D
ReplyDeleteHave a great 3-day weekend, Bing.
will you do a meme for me? pls. visit my blog for more details. thanks.
ReplyDeletei think there are problems that one can't do much about, bw only that one does not have enough means to be able to contribute to the solution. and that is really depressing. wonder if being nonchalant about situations where we can't do anything can help ease the bother. :-)
ReplyDeleteprobably got used to it na, verns? ha ha
nakukuha pala sa inom yun, single? :-D
hi, evi. actually there are a number of memes that were asked but unfortunately the PC monitor blasted off so i can't practically do anything. am currently replying from another PC. will try to do the meme after everythin's ok, ok? :-D
there must be something on those morbid thoughts. We just don't know.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's because of anxiety. But we never really know when our time comes. It's best to be prepared, anytime.
"wonder if being nonchalant about situations where we can’t do anything can help ease the bother."
ReplyDeleteMore than nonchalance, it think it is crucial that we recognize reality - that there are many many things in this world that are out of our control so we can free ourselves from those morbid thoughts that gradually kill us. The real tragedy is if what we fear don't happen and we end up depressed, disheveled and with no appreciation of life ! :(
In my opinion we can do two things - prepare for the eventuality for the "what if" or pray that what we fear wouldn't happen.
no worries, ma'am bing. take your time.
ReplyDeleteSila ate ko dati nagising nang nasa tabi nya yung magnanakaw sa boarding house nila.
ReplyDeletelike a warning, lazarus?
ReplyDeletehindi na morbid thought yun, mon. reality na. :-(
ah... that is where paranoia comes in, bw. it is always best to pray, i agree. :-)
ReplyDeleteWhen I lived in a house, I didn't really worry about anyone breaking in because I didn't really own that much stuff. Maybe my laptop would be the only thing I would worry about. But then again, that's replaceable. In the end, we can only do so much and then it's out of our hands what happens. But I try not to worry about things I have no control over.
ReplyDeleteIncidentally, it's the same anxiety I have at night that most times, I keep myself awake. Mostly, I have morbid thoughts of fire. What if fire suddenly breaks loose and we're all asleep. God forbids!
ReplyDeleteThere's this guy at work, he and I find pictures of car accidents and murder victims interesting, it's not that we're that sick and twisted, I think it's just that you wonder what people were thinking during or while something like that was happening, I have very strong curiousity I suppose..
ReplyDeletehello to everybody! am so sorry to have been 'asleep' for quite some time.. :-D
ReplyDeletewil, there are things in the house which have sentimental value. they may not cost that much but they are so valuable you cannot afford losing them. :-) i try, too, not to worry too much. it is very true that we cannot control what is intended to happen.
i am very afraid of fire, too, major tom. i hope and pray that God will always keep me and my family from such tragedy. sabagay, kahit anong tragedy, it will be very hard to cope but fire presents literal pain. (ang sakit-sakit ma-burn!)
hi, MsRebecca. welcome to my humble abode. :-D well, i think we all have this 'strong curiosity' as to how people think or react when in that situation. but i wonder if one or two will still have the chance to 'think' during a car accident. it's only a matter of seconds, and probably it would be like seeing (and not thinking anymore how horrible it would be like) the messenger of death looming.
I have been trying to look up as much information as possible involving morbid thoughts,
ReplyDeleteand I came upon this one..
I too, right now, suffer brutally from these thoughts.
I'm only 16,
and I spend atleast 12 hours a day, of my life, thinking about horrible things involving nothing but death.
Well it's not me.. to think about them,
it's something else,
such as OCD?
I'm not sure if we are on the same level here,
but I've noticed if I don't get uptight and all anxious about the thoughts, they proceed to vanish quicker... and thank christ there is some hope in this world for OCD suffering people, with all the therapy/treatment available.
hi, jordan. you're too young to be suffering from morbid thoughts. i have yet to research about OCD. i think sometimes it is only in the mind. :- ) after all, we have the control over the mind and the entire body.
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