It’s over.
It was like a bomb to realize the loss. There was denial, clear cut but did not succeed against the truth. Gone. Will never come back.
We have been together only for three months. I treated with care, cherished the joy I have been having, and appreciated the striking quality. None could replace the vivid pictures of candidness, sharp details and moments of love.
I possessed and I lost. In a snap, gone. And I cried in the bathroom, very hard. I cried my eyes out after learning the truth – no possibility of a come back. Papsie made a mistake. What a mistake, a careless effort to disregard!
How I wished I did not choose to bring along. Just left and forgot about the plans of joyous collections. Just left and concentrated on the plan of just listening to mass. But these thoughts cannot erase the hurt. Tricky what-ifs that could have been avoided and whatnots that could not replace the loss.
My Canon IXUS-30 digital camera is gone together with my cellular phone. I was still hopeful till noon that the finder will not be a keeper. As evening comes, the hope vanishes.
My fellowship with my valuable possessions is over.
Should I blame Papsie for the carelessness? Should I blame myself for bringing it along instead of leaving it at home? Holding him or myself accountable could not bring it back. Could not reverse the instances, either.
A bad day, it is. But thank God for it. I learned a lot today. And I thought real bad luck only happens on Friday the 13th.
I still cry but not loads of tears anymore. Only drops of tears. I regret the many things today that transpired but only time could heal my distress.
I miss my camera.
bing nakikiramay ako sa pagkawala ng iyong camera at phone. just think that they are just material things so they can be replaced. i know there were memories in that camera too. the lost of which is harder to take. but is it really? in our lifetime we accumulate so many photos. hundreds. how many times have we gone back to look at them?
ReplyDeletei have an officemate who went for a vacation. took photos and downloaded them in her laptop. coming back here, she lost her baggage with the laptop. not sure if this is working to make you feel better. oh well at least i tried. cheers.
malay mo mas maganda ang kapalit ng nawala, when God closes the door, He opens another window....
ReplyDelete@ka uro - thanks so much. i love pictures really. unlike many, i always 'review' our pictures. they somehow release stress and give you that feeling of fulfillment. the reason i bought the digicam is because i like to take pictures. kaya kahit mahal, binili. i have made up my mind not to think of it so much. in that case, Papsie will not be affected so much, too.
ReplyDelete@ techguy - a lot of pipol is telling me that. kahit walang kapalit, ang makalimutan at matanggap na me nangyayaring ganito is enough to move on. thank you so much for your attempt to cheer me up, too.
i'm sorry for your loss. akala ko naman kung sinong tao..hehehe
ReplyDeletejust think it as a blessing. malay mo, mas kinakailangan ng taong makakakuha nun. cheers.
nice posts, btw.
hello silentmode_v2
ReplyDeletejust wanted to get the reader's attention. he he
sana nga ganun, that's what i am praying for - na mas kailangan niya ang mga yun o ang perang magmumula dun pag nabenta na niya. thanks for the encouragement and for the visit.